삶

i know that there are a world full of those out there that are better than me. better minds, better personalities, better families, better environments, better pasts and future, better people. better until the word better leaves a bitter taste in my tongue.

알면서도, 왜 이렇게 괴로운건지.
알면서도, 왜 더 노력을 안하는건지.
알면서도, 왜 난 아무것도 안하는건지.

in the end, it doesn't even matter? oh, who are you kidding. in the end, all matters. and there's noone else to blame anymore. it starts with self, and ends with self. self destruction. self realization. self confidence. self pity. selfish.

so, ultimately... what?