i actually am not satisfied with the previous post and had mulled over whether to delete it or not, but i won't. i sometimes don't know why i become so neurotic over such things, because i hardly consider myself a perfectionist over other, more important events in my life; studies, friends, families, simply dealing with my life in general, i slack. no perfection there. nope.
i can feel this entry becoming one of those really whiny ones. beware. since i have so much to say but can't handle writing them in one chunky block, i'll put it in a list format, in random order. hmm, maybe not so random, as i would guess that whatever pops into my head first would be the more important Whines. anyway, here we go:
Whine #1- my body has gone nuts. about a month ago, my legs had developed somesort of a rash that would itch and itch and itch. a trip to the health center and they gave me some sticky lotion to put on, that is simply really sticky and gross and gets all over my hand when i try putting some onto my legs, therefore resulting in my not using the lotion so much and in turn resulting in my rash getting worse. now my legs are in better condition, after forcing myself to scratch less, but now my arms are all itchy with rash. it's driving me nuts. it's driving me up the wall. and also very much distracts me from my studies, because i either scratch a lot or i concentrate so hard on not scratching that i can't concentrate on anything else. it's all very frustrating. rrg.
Whine #2- i met my first eestie-beastie yesterday night, while working at my desk. it was a really big one too. eestie-beasties are these horrible, centipede-like-but-with-less-number-of-leg creatures that are simply disgusting. too many legs, long antennas, likes to crawl up walls and just very, very gross. by the time i had gotten out of my shock, the eestie-beestie had fallen to the floor, and when i had followed it with my fat math textbook ( my special Weapon of Destruction for tresspassing bugs) it had dissapeared into the crack between the heater and the wall. after standing guard in front of the crack for many minutes, i decided to take action and promptly taped over the cracks with scotch tape. i am getting some duct-tape tommorow and will finalize my Anti-Eestie-Beastie Mission by taping over all the cracks in my room. i despise those things. i keep staring at the portion of the wall that wretched thing crawled up to now. i feel so insecure in my room now. it is no longer a safe place.
Whine #3- a series of temporary depressions have hit me every few hours or so in the past few days, in which i start to mentally hyperventilate and drink lots and lots of tea. it's difficult to explain the reason why, and so i won't. it has to do with studies though. academia. work. knowledge. just makes me depressed thinking about those words. ugh.
Whine #4- my wrists hurt. they ache. i think it's because i type too much and i've been scratching at my rash too much. too much wrist-action, i guess..... which could mean so many things, but let's not go into that.
Whine #5- i cannot find that book, "fireball". i really miss it. an attempt at finding it on Abebooks.com turned out to be a failure.
Whine #6- i wish That Person would realize.
Whine #7- i wish i could become a better person. really.
No comments:
Post a Comment